Sunday, October 18, 2009

Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, that's life

Dwayne: I wish I could just sleep until I was eighteen and skip all this crap-high school and everything-just skip it.

Frank: Do you know who Marcel Proust is?

Dwayne: He's the guy you teach.

Frank: Yeah. French writer. Total loser. Never had a real job. Unrequited love affairs. Gay. Spent 20 years writing a book almost no one reads. But he's also probably the greatest writer since Shakespeare. Anyway, he uh... he gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, Those were the best years of his life, 'cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn't learn a thing. So, if you sleep until you're 18... Ah, think of the suffering you're gonna miss. I mean high school? High school-those are your prime suffering years. You don't get better suffering than that.

Little Miss Sunshine

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Stand by me

I am sure gonna miss this place. My school for 14 years, my second home. I can't believe i will be leaving in a couple of months :'(

Sunday, October 11, 2009

My Coldplay-ish Life

So i want to be Bigger and Stronger but there are a lot Things I Don’t Understand. I ask Marianne and Moses and the they told me “Don’t Panic” i have to be calm and drink a Glass Of Water. Then i went to Violet Hill and Yes i cry, i don’t even see a Warning Sign of what am i about to do next, i have absolutely no idea. This is The Hardest Part of my life, the one where i have to make choices about my life and i don’t want to be Swallowed In The Sea because of my wrong decisions. Then i decided to take things In My Place, i want to Talk to my Brothers and Sisters about this and also my parents.

The Clocks are ticking and i began to Shiver is this a right decision? Can i even make this one come true and make my family proud. My mom told me that i can go to Amsterdam to take my Master degree if i am interested in law. All this thinking makes me feel like A Rush Of Blood To The Head. I don’t want to get in Trouble so i have to act right.

There are currently 42 new tweets appearing on my Twitterfox, this is one of the things that distract me from studying. And this Yellow Economics book are hunting me. It is like i hear A Whisper from it saying “You have to study..” I think times really do passed by just like that. They are running like a Speed of Sound. One time you look at the sky and it’s still a sunny Daylight then the night comes and the Cemetery of London becomes such a creepy place. I must admit sometimes i want to take control of time you know pause, stop, rewind, or even skip it. Such a shame that The Scientist have not yet invented a time machine.

I do hope that Everything’s Not Lost when i leave High School please just say “We Never Change” because i have the best group of friends in High School i really do, and you’re all the One I Love. Life is Such A Rush it’s going with a really High Speed. So my school mates, in the future i want to see a Postcards From Far Far Away and that postcard is from you! Maybe you will live in different countries with such an awesome job. Just please be Careful Where You Stand.. because it’s not always a Life In Technicolour If you’re not be careful you might catch yourself back in Square One.

That’s it fellas i hope God Put A Smile Upon Your Face today. This Rainy Day makes me sleepy and I hope I’ll See You Soon. Wish me luck on my future decisions, Viva La Vida!



Saturday, October 3, 2009

My ship isn't pretty

Hello! Long no write, eh? It's been a long time since i actually write about my daily life, well that's because i don't feel like it. But now i think i'm about to write again. So here it goes...

I don't know where to start, there's so much going in my life right now and sometimes i just want it all to slow down. It's like time is ticking so fast, and yes i'm panicking. There a lot unnecessary drama going on in life right now, not important but somehow it bothers me.

The fact that i'm now a senior and will go to college very soon scares me. I'm scared that i won't go to my dream college and my dreams will shattered. That thought always makes me cry and it always running around in my mind. Like last night i was alone and i just cry so hard, yes i'm scared, yes i panic, and yes i'm feeling rather lonely. My friends told me that i have to take things easy and try not to think about the worst. But there are times that i feel that i'm going to failed. Then the fact that all of my family (mother, father, and sister) studied in UI for college makes me feel under pressure. It just bother me that i HAVE to get in there too, just to make my family proud. It just scare me to death thinking what if i'm not accepted in UI, what will happen to me? Will my family accept it? Honestly i don't know. I'm about to cry writing this, it's emotional if i have to think about my future.

To be honest i hate being a senior.